It seems like I barely blinked

Today is it, she is five. I can hardly believe that our baby is five years old. I can vividly remember my last night being pregnant with her. Waking up early to head to the hospital. One of my favorite memories was seeing those dimpled cheeks and loudly saying “look she has dimples” seconds after she was born.

ImageThe next couple years brought a whirlwind of first and new adventures but she learned and so did we here are a couple of my favorite pics.

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Days after her second birthday this picture was taken. Her face unknowingly summed it all up, change was already in the air.

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Year number two brought news of a baby sister, a big girl bed, potty training and more fun.

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Then In February of 2011 she officially took on a new role

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It was like I was dreaming two beautiful healthy girls, finally able to quit working to stay home with them life couldn’t have been better…

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To our surprise about 3 weeks before her 3 rd birthday this happened

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Unexpectedly in a matter of seconds EVERYTHING changed. Over the next year we would: Live with grandparents, move into a new duplex, go to Disney World, start building and move into a brand new house. We never saw any of this coming. In an amazing and un-explainable way the next year although one of the hardest we have done, it was one of the best. We saw countless blessing after blessing, and smile after smile.

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We moved back home in April of 2012 almost one year later. Marissa loved the new house and her PINK room.

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We were able to celebrate her 4th birthday at the new house, she started preschool and we adapted to more of the new normal together. This past year I watched her grow from a silly girl in the late stages of toddler hood into a still silly but more mature girl. It was amazing to watch.

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I can’t believe 5 amazing years have gone by.

With all of the ups and downs and ins and outs of the past 5 years I can honestly say I have NO idea what is next for us. But, I can finally also say I am okay with that.

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future ~Jeremiah 29:11

I can find comfort in knowing that. And I know His plan is always good even when it doesn’t always seem that way.

Today starts a whole new chapter and adventure in life and we will take it one day and one step at a time.

Happy Birthday Marissa Renea, we love you to the end of the earth and back.

A change of plans

Somethings we just do without even thinking about what we are doing. They are just choices that we make and we probably honestly haven’t put much thought into them. And then sometimes God comes in and says “Why are you doing that?”. My most recent experience with this concerned how we would school our soon to be starting kindergarten daughter. I had always said we would go the public route. I had never considered any other direction. Private school is not in our budget and home school was honestly something I had always said I would never do. I never had anything against it, I just didn’t ever see myself at a kitchen table teaching children. So, I quickly dismissed thoughts of home school long before I ever had children.

Then boom, there it was. I felt God was asking me to consider the one thing I said I would never do. At first I tried to dismiss His pulling as my emotions. Over the process of a couple weeks, some conversations and prayer it finally was clear. We feel like we are being led to home school. This is not a God wants all kids to be home schooled speech. Let’s face it not everyone is able, wants, or is called to. This is me saying that at this time we 100% feel like this is the direction God is leading our family in. For our family it ultimately came down to having a desire to better equip her before sending her out for battle. But, this is our conviction.

Am I nervous?

Yes

Am I scared?

YES

Will it be hard?

I am positive it will.

But I do believe that God is good! I believe that it could be the best investment and sacrifice we could ever make.

And I know that He would never call us to do something that we can’t do.

His grace is overwhelming and sufficient.

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I am so excited that not only do I get to be her mom this year, but her teacher to.